From Grief to Faith

Dear one,
Ah. Ahhhhh.

I do not know anything right now.

It is a season of remembering our hearts and intentionally letting go of the shadow structures that keep us scared and hiding our Love.
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The most important things are the hardest to put into words.

I have no coherent, eloquent words for what I feel and witness on the collective and very individual level right now.

A lot can be said to describe the horrific events happening in the Middle East.

The most important things are the hardest to put into words.

I have no coherent, eloquent words for what I feel and witness on the collective and very individual level right now.

I have no strategy.
I see no clear path.

Just a broken, open heart.

And an urge to open it more.

I am here if you want to talk.
I am here if you want to cry.
I am here if you want to rage.

I am here to Love ourselves through this.

I am here if you want to Love more.

For those that cannot.

What would Love do?

Only your heart knows the answer to that.
So, trust that you have the answer you seek.
You are the answer.

And we have to talk about it; we must acknowledge that we need to choose to stand for something in light of tragedy, Death, trauma, and violence.

I know nothing.

Except that I can choose Love. Right now, I can choose Love. 

I  choosing to Love deeper and more.

Let’s learn to Love better.

Join me next Saturday for a collective healing experience in a journey to connect with your deep yearning to love, your intuitive wisdom, sacred creative energy, and fully immerse yourself into your heart's truth.

Whatever you know or believe, I am standing with you to pray for peace in people's hearts.

I choose to trust that Love will win. Always.

I cannot comprehend why the atrocity needs to happen for us to remember to return to Love.

I do not know why we keep reliving the same story as a species.

Only now with more significant stakes.

Let's pray.

Just pray.

For Peace.

For Peace.

For Your Heart's Peace first.

Then for another's.

Then, for all beings.

Just pray.

I have hope.

I have hope.

I know we Love will come through.

The most important things are the hardest to put into words.

I have few coherent words right now.

Just a lot of feelings, thoughts and old belief systems that are being destroyed.

There is loneliness. Outrage, Disbelief.

There is grief, shame, and fear.

There is doubt, rage, confusion, and denial.

Sadness.
Deep Sadness.

And also hope.
Deep hope.
A knowing that we will Win through Loving better.

Be true to what the world is asking of you.
To what the Sacred in your life commands you to do for YOUR growth and healing.

Understanding where Our own outrage and grief are hiding in our bodies.

Looking at the parts of us that we deny or shame.

Learning to Love better.

My answer is to choose to Love and Do better

Liberating our hearts from judgment, and oppression from our own egos.

That is the real work. 

It’s not sexy.

And it’s full of Grace.

Can Feel It.

To heal our intimacy with the truth of hearts.

That is Grace.

That intimacy is Love.

My body is cracked open right now.

I am grieving deeply. I know you feel it, too.

We can hold the space and transmute some of the collective grief by being with our feelings- now, just as they come.

Being with It all.

It is All For Us to Heal.

So, where do we go from here?

It is Eclipse season.

The Full moon is coming on Saturday.
We stay here, and we go deeper into the Truth.

Into the mystery.

Into our hearts.

Our guts and our wombs.

This is the only path I know I trust.
Let’s go.

Into our Guts.

Into our Hearts.

Into our Core.

Into our Wombs.

That’s how we pray for Peace in our own bodies and hearts.

We pray with each other.

We pray for each other.

We Commit To Love and Re-Commit to Loving more.

That is all.

Let's ignite our hearts with a fire that burns down all illusions of separation, discord, or "other."

Let's rise as one beating heart-drum, in harmony with our blood pulsing through our tired, heroic, sacred bodies.

One Love.

One blood.

One Breath.

One heartbeat.

One.

I pray for those without space to see anything other than violence, fear, Death, destruction, and war to not lose their faith.

I pray for those taught how to hate to feel their heartbreak and return to their humanity.

I pray that all beings Know they are worthy of Love and Are loved.

I pray for myself to learn to forgive, let go, surrender, and atone.

Not to condone violence and indulge arrogance, entitlement, and egos, but to learn to Love IN the Darkness.

And Love wins.

Because it is true.

Because it is what I choose to remember as the only truth I need to know, everyday.

This is not about picking sides or judging who is right or who is to blame.

I know I am not here to judge or condemn.

That is the truth.

I have been sitting with this for two weeks with nothing to say.

All I have is that I am here to stand for and with human beings and to be more human.

For human beings.

For Love.

What does that look like?

It looks like inquiring and unlearning much of what I had believed about my history and belonging.

You might not know, but I spent a significant part of my childhood in Israel after my parents and I left Russia to find a safer and freer world.

Now what?

And now the world

I once knew is burning.

So I am conjuring a new one.

The illusions, the stale ideas, the oppressive ideologies, the corrupted systems of power...

No more.

I am here to do the work.

This is what it looks like.

I know there is much more healing to do.

On a Personal and collective level.

For all of us.

We Get to Do this work.

I am here for it.

I know my soul chose this body and this history for a reason.

Russia, Israel, Colombia...of course.

It is so perfect.

The wars that I inherited merged with the wars I created within myself.

Those Are the Ones to look at.

And so this is how we transmute the collective and universal shadows through healing on the intimately personal level First.

Let’s go.

As within, so without.

Looking into the abyss of my own fear, violence, rage, and grief in my body.

Re-parenting, re-marrying, re-claiming lost pieces of our soul.

That is what we’re here for.

You and I.

Unsurprisingly, my work with the dark Goddess archetype and Shadow work is becoming even more potent and needed.

Last year, my grandmother passed away in Haifa, Israel. I have not seen her in 15 years.

I loved her.

I have not grieved her fully, and I am now going into the space to do that.

Now is the time.

So, I dedicate this post and the workshop I am offering this weekend to her memory.

Tamara, I love you.

Thank you for loving me.

This is how we heal suffering, fear, violence, and shame in the generations before us and inside our families.

This is how we free our children from this.

We are doing this.

It’s time.

I am meeting Truth.

I am trusting God.

I am surrendering to my heart.

It is calling me.

It has called you by your name.

This is it.

One Love.

That is all. That is all I know.

And it is all we need.

Please share this with anyone who needs a nudge to return to the power of Love in their Hearts.

P.S. If you want to join me for a community gathering to explore your sacred body's mystery and raise your Love frequency, Register for the womb awakening and healing with the Sacred Feminine and Masculine experience here.