I help Powerful People Discover and Love who they are so that they can live with Integrity, Heart, and Purpose.
You have been called.
You know there is a challenging and liberating journey ahead.
You say yes.
You know it is your time.
This path is not for everyone.
You are not for everyone.
You are the exception to the rules.
So am I. Let’s go forward together.
Are you ready to create our own rules and let the Divine guide your way?
My story
Do you know that feeling, where you just feel different?
I have spent my life living in two worlds. One is a world of magic, yearning, and faith - my inner life, the connection to my intuition, to nature, my art, the sacred experience of my body feeling the urge to love… and the other world: the “reality” where I had to first reject, and then spend most of my life reclaiming to embody who I am.
I have never felt “normal,” and so I lived in my make-believe world. I learned early on that to feel safe and welcome I needed to perform and hide.
Born in Colombia, once my parents divorced I grew up moving across the world following the path of my artist step-father, living between Russia, Israel, and Canada, and never really feeling like I belonged anywhere. The odd duck, and the last kid to be picked on the sports team.
So, at 8 years old, after being bullied at my new school in Israel, I chose to start hiding who I was, and that is when I gave up my power.
That’s what happens when you decide it is unsafe to be yourself. I chose to push away my truth and shut down my power to Embody my Worth.
It took 20 years for me to start reclaiming it and that is how I got here.
As I let others decide what my value was, and as I ran after validation and acceptance, I would find freedom in spending hours alone performing in imaginary stories where I could finally be myself and feel my body expand with the energy and power to love who I was. Until I had to go back to the real world again.
Isn’t it perfect that my first chosen profession made it obvious for me to go through life, hiding my truth?
I became an actress.
I had always liked living out other people’s stories because it was the only place I felt safe to be in my own body.
Meanwhile, I had a hidden life.
I live where I spent hours talking to the Divine.
Having always felt a deep yearning to find the sacred and the mystical in my life, I had also secretly explored healing, and spirituality, always trying to find a sense of inner worth and purpose in a teaching or a practice.
In my late twenties after my intuition had pushed me to end an abusive relationship, and I found myself in the middle of my acting career, disillusioned and alone, I gave it all up.
I still could not find my worth or my value. I could not feel my womb and lost my libido. Sitting by myself in my studio apartment I knew that I did not know who I was.
I became disconnected from the people and things that used to fill my time. Nothing satisfied the emptiness I felt, which had been in there all my life, but now was making me physically unwell.
As I was going through what felt like a life crisis, I lost my stepfather to cancer, and that was the last straw.
I felt the fragility of life, and also numbness. I could not feel any grief or sadness. I have become dissembled in what felt like a survival mechanism because my feelings were scary to me.
I could feel the darkness in so many of them.
I suddenly felt the weight of never really having known who I was, because I had tried so hard to find my value in my career or my romantic partnerships.
I knew that what I had been doing was not working.
I knew what I was looking for was the Sacred. god, Goddess, The Divine, Greater Power, Universal Consciousness. God.
Everywhere. And I could not find it.
I was trying to connect to my purpose and my worth, to define meaning in what I was doing, and I knew I needed something other than society or my ego-mind to show me the way.
I was used to using my sexuality as a way to connect.
I had always used my intellect or my looks as a way to get recognition for my worth and power.
None of that worked.
You know the feeling when You Knew The truth is there, but You can’t fully see it?
Yes. Me too.
I knew there was a powerful woman inside of me who knew who she was and what she wanted, but my mind did not know how to listen to her.
I felt foreign to myself.
In the middle of what felt like a complete shedding of my personality and identity, I lost my stepfather, who was the catalyst for my spiritual seeking.
I felt ashamed and devastated, that I had not been able to support him in his struggle, because, I lacked the deeper connection to my own soul, my healing power.
I realized that I was not ready to do any work, or help anyone else, when I was so removed from my own heart.
I could not grieve or feel anything. I knew that the biggest lesson of my journey was coming, and it was going to take me to face the parts of me I was so scared to see.
My shadows.My fear. My shame and my ego plans to become “the best this, or that…”
I knew what to do, I was good at it. But I still hid myself, and rejected the truth I felt.
That what I knew I wanted, what I knew he wanted, that every person I was meeting, or working with wanted more than anything was to feel Loved for who they REALLY are.
Beneath the masks, and the stories of their mind.
Is this something you have felt too?
Intuitively knew I had to go deeper into my own healing.
And so I did something radical. I went into a complete withdrawal from normal life. I stepped into the archetype of the nun/mystic.
I became celibate and started learning anything and everything I felt called to deepen my connection to my spiritual body.
I started studying coaching and mindset, and psychology as well as deepening my already very robust experience of spirituality through my intuitive practice.
I stopped dating.
I left my social circles. I pushed away my friends.
In the interim, I chose to study life coaching as a way to connect to people differently.
I wanted to speak to them about the truth. The truth of who they were and what they loved.
And so, for the next few years, I stripped away more layers. I went to graduate school and played around with different career paths, still uncertain of what I wanted.
Until one day, I knew I had to go all in.
I asked to be led, and I finally had the unwavering faith that the Sacred I had been longing for was asking me to step up and start doing the work I knew so well.
Guiding women and men to wake up to the truth of their power and their divine essence.
By whatever means necessary, but always leading with my intuition.
As I emerged from a long incubation period, I found the work method that made the biggest difference, as I realize that my inner work was only now beginning.
I found the yoga of sacred intimacy, shamanic teachings, and neo-tantric spirituality and realized that my intuitive work with archetypes, embodied practice, movement, and sexuality had a very practical and effective application to the coaching and creative work I had been doing and that there were healing and therapeutic modalities available to me that went deeper than I ever had dared.
And so, I was forced to look into my darkness.
To work with, investigate and love the shadows I did not want to see. (This work is ongoing, by the way.)
I realized the missing piece to most healing and personal development work I had done, or had my clients do: The missing link, the glue that made real progress possible overtime was a consistent, spiritual embodiment practice that focused on shedding old programming and installing a new way of Being into our nervous system and that went beyond personality, mindset, moods, and behaviour: what I discovered is that true alchemy happens on a cellular level. And that our DNA carries our spirituality.
Sacred sexuality is about coming into union within Yourself from the place of true, outrageous self-love.
Integrating the Feminine and the Masculine and feeling your wholeness is a process and not a goal.
Archetypal work allows for all of that and more.
I was inspired, and hooked. My journey started making sense.
I realized why I had been so drawn to the dark. And why it was so easy for me to bypass my pain, experience my fears and run away from the shadows.
I was scared of my power, and therefore of my sexuality.
I did not know how to take responsibility for my leadership or my vision.
So I gave it up and avoided it. I stayed on the surface and pushed away the deep work I was called to do.
Because I did not know how.
Mindset and energy work were not enough.
Psychology was not enough.
Yoga was not enough.
I did not have the tools or the guidance to do it well.
Until I did.
As I dug into the world of sacred intimacy and spiritual shadow work, I started studying the work of Carolyn Myss, Gabor Mate, Richard Shwartz, David Deida, John Wineland, Sabrina Lynn Gene keys and created my way of connecting archetypal analysis to real-world mindset healing, spiritual awakening, and personal transformation.
This is where the 15 years I had spent acting, directing, and writing finally fell into place. My love and capacity to embody a character and read the archetypal pattern in someone’s body and life had now come as one of my most powerful skills as a teacher, facilitator and coach.
As I did the work on understanding my shadow archetypes and how they had been leading my life, I fell in love with their gifts, and therefore with myself.
What I realise now, is that the work I do is focused on one thing: To help you remember and learn to love every single part of you. And there are indeed many parts.
And all of them are sacred. All of them have a function, All of them make part of the whole, and all of them contain a gift unique to you.
All of them are part of your divine curricula,
That is your purpose.
To learn to read and interpret and act upon your highest power, in service to your true desire, so that you repurpose here can bet one of creating more love in this world.
As I had been playing the archetypes of the Prostitute, and the Eternal Student and Child that refuses to grow up, I also stepped into my Mystic, Queen, and Priestess, as well as reclaimed my Artist.
I moved from performing my life to getting someone else to accept me, to reveal my true self-worth, and to own it, through the many shadows and challenges of my ego.
Make no mistake this is daily work
And I know you are here for it.
Let’s go.
I will create the space for you to become your guru, healer, teacher and beloved.
I will hold every piece of you, as you come back into wholeness.
I will fight for you and will not let you abandon yourself.
I get you.
You are here because your soul knows are ready.
It’s time.
Welcome to my world.
Fun, and Weird Facts about me:
- I love walking in silence.
- I had kissed a girl and I liked it.
- I am a great dancer, unless there is a choreography to learn.
- I am part Native Colombian, part Jewish, part Spanish, part Russian, and part Polish.
- I used to be deeply ashamed of my heritage because- again- it did not fit anywhere. Now I am deeply honoured I get to claim all these awesome and mystical parts of myself.
- I speak fluent Russian, English and French, some Spanish, and a bit of Hebrew.
- My favourite thing to do is Nothing. Staring at the tree outside with complete silence is bliss. (I have quite the masculine spiritual body.)
- I am an extroverted introvert. Crowds make me quest unless I am on stage.
- I had been in “romantic love” once.
- I have never been married, and do not have kids. Yet.
- I love how boring my life is.
- My favourite food is cottage cheese mixed in with peanut butter and banana.
- I almost became a yoga teacher when I realized that building a coaching business is hard work. Happy I stuck through it.
- My favourite books are War and Peace, anything by Rumi, and Women Who Run With the Wolves.
